I have decided

To stop letting lists limit me.
Instead of having a formal bucket list that I go by, I'm gonna go by the list in my heart.
(wow, that was cheesy. )
But really.

There are so many things that I didn't get on to the list that I really want to happen. Little dreams that no one else really knows about, or if they do the depth of how much I want to accomplish these things seems to be overlooked.

Anywho.
One of those is to go to the tour for the So You Think You Can Dance top 10. We tried to go last year, but it didn't work out. I wanted to go this year so desperately, but it wasn't looking plausible. I couldn't go to the Houston one on Saturday because of a dance festival for my dance studio which has since closed. It's the last thing I get to do as part of that studio, and I can't miss it. The one in San Antonio is on a Monday, but it starts at 8. I'd either have to ask off work, or drive home extremely late which is dangerous for me.

While watching the finale episode of So You Think You Can Dance last night, one of my dance girls was telling me how her and her mom are going. I mentioned how I wanted to but couldn't make the travel happen. I jokingly said, "Take me with you!" to which she replied, "I'll ask my mom if you can ride with us!"

Her mom said yes.
So, I bought my ticket. The best seats in the same general section. It was expensive, but I call it my birthday present to myself. When I looked online at where the seats are, it's literally the 3rd row in the orchestra next to the meet and greet seats.

WHAT.
So, I'm freaking out, and really hoping it's not a dud seat with a pole or something in the way.
I'm beyond excited that this is even possible, because I had given up hope, but couldn't shake how deeply I wanted to be there.
Natalia made the impossible possible.
And we're driving back that night and I don't have to drive.
Win.

This year apparently is about doing things that make me feel alive.
Including going to this tour and traveling to Europe.
I don't want to neglect the fact that every day holds something important, because history and memories are made up of mostly typical, seemingly uninteresting days laced together and immortalized by the pen.
Or, in recent cases, keyboard.
I don't want to waste the potential in these days, wishing for the ones ahead.
There could be something before those days I'm counting down to that I don't want to happen, and I could miss out on irreplaceable moments.

I'm excited to get to those days, but I'm also aware of the importance of today.
This work day
This interaction with friends
This hug from my parents
This pet of my dog's head
This conversation with my sister
This dance class.

Enjoy the this while waiting for the that.